THE JOURNEY
Some would say that there is a time frame of when healing begins and ends. My own journey may have started in the womb, however I became more aware of my presence in this world and what healing could mean to me a few years ago. In joining a cacao ceremony, where one drinks melted cacao and initiates breathwork in a group meditation circle, there was an unknown presence that emerged.
With my eyes closed and concentrated on my breath, a presence hovered over me and it was peaceful. This warming sensation became a figure which I then realized could be myself, or my higher state of consciousness. This presence and sensation told me, not in words, that everything will be okay. Tears rolled down my cheeks, my body became lifted into this state of consciousness, as if the two became one. I had never felt this before and the image of that experience is engraved in my mind to this day. Once we, the meditation group, opened our eyes, everyone was glowing. Some laughed, some cried, some said nothing. I learned that healing can present itself in any form.
The ceremony had ended, and a stranger next to me gave me a warm welcoming hug. Continuing to cry, I felt love for the first time. Love for myself, love for others, but mostly love for life itself.
Since this experience, I decided to continue healing. A few years later I found massage therapy. I was unsure what I could learn here. I knew that touch was important to me, and the presence of others was important to me. I discovered more about myself in this school. My first semester was eventful, learning anatomy, physiology and what touch truly meant. There is more than one way to touch. I learned that by being present, you can touch a soul deeply and ignite change. This reminded me of that feeling in my ceremony. I learned that mental pain can cause physical pain, therefore storing trauma in the body. As someone who has experienced trauma, this was a breakthrough for me. I chose to be here now, to dive into the medicinal world of movement therapy, inspired to bring this experience and healing into the community.